Space and System of Wants
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My takeaways from today include: “Our work does not start at rehearsal; it starts at home”. We do not need the opera house or an audience to perform. It is time to let go of inhibitions and share my craft. If I know I’m not singing for the sake of “look at me, look how good I am” then why am I so nervous? Each class, and especially today, I get better and better at thinking of this as a lab setting. This is the place try out what I’ve learned and what I’ve discovered. I felt moved today to explore more movements. Walking, running, crawling. Finding the action words to describe the sub-text really helped influence my movements.
I’m excited to record myself at home and see if my motivation comes through. By next class I hope to be confident in my preparation and my mindset. I’m performing for other artists who love art and want to be moved by extraordinary artistry. I’m an artist and do not need approval. I will move as the text moves me. L.
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Today I felt very engaged to my character and the motivation my character has beneath the words and movement. This engagement and awareness helped mold a new and improved version of my piece. A more interesting and attention grabbing one, I believe. At least it felt that way to me, because I felt the most engaged and connected to it than I ever had before today. I think the spacial awareness and motivation talk we had before rehearsing played a role in this realization. Next week I would like to further this work and try to connect my movements to my motivation as much as I can. I want every breath, movement, and spacial awareness to mean something, to have a purpose. Right now it feels like 80% of my piece is that way. I hope to make it 100% next week. C.R.
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In our rehearsal we rehearsed our phrase and incorporated this idea of using our space and making it part of the performance. I thought through this rehearsal how I would enter and exit my space with motivation as well as I gave myself the goal of wanting to escape but also wanting to not give into the temptation of leaving. I think it is true that I need to stop searching for approval. I tend to be apologetic in my art form and strive for validation unconsciously. It’s something I work on but still have the bad habit of doing. I am becoming a master of my art form and should have the confidence as such. B.
Today we worked on using the whole stage through movements. Then we worked on our solos. I’m working on memorizing “Hope” by Emily Dickinson. We each performed our solos in the center of the class. I felt better about this one compared to several weeks ago, but need to keep working on the poem being confidently memorized.
Today in rehearsal I decided to change my piece. In doing so I discovered that my connection to these words and ideas is more clear and I feel more emotionally invested. I chose to change the piece because I felt that this would be a good opportunity to work on the feelings I am having about my life events at this moment. Next rehearsal I plan to completely solidify the phrase because I only have half of it that I feel is comfortable and try my hardest not to seek out approval at the end of my performance. T.
Focusing on why I’m making movements or why I’m saying things really helps me feel more confident in what I’m doing. Knowing this also helps me engage in the movements themselves more. I found it helpful to think of the active space around me as well. Next rehearsal I want to go deeper into this and make my whole phrase more cohesive C.J.

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